I Want A Normal Life

My life is not normal.

I wish it was normal but it isn’t.

My head is hurting right now and before I write this post.

I just don’t know where to start.

The only thing that I could say is just I have to carry a heavy burden each day for the rest of my life.

Not just I have to carry a cross in my neck for the rest of my life, but I also have to carry a heavy cross in my life.

The sad part is I don’t know with whom I can share this burden.

My life is hard to explain.

Just too many things happen.

I just cannot concentrate in school and classes.

I cannot study.

I cannot work on projects.

All of this happen beyond my control.

I know what it feels now to be CHOSEN.

To be the anointed one.

To be called by God.

To be the “SPECIAL” one.

I just do not understand God’s plan in my life.

WHY IS THIS HAPPEN TO ME?

THIS IS BEYOND MY CONTROL.

God, I want to cry to You everyday.

GOD, help me…..

Help me through my classes.

Help me through my life.

I want to start over from freshman year if I can.

I miss too many stuffs from my class.

I don’t know where to start.

AAA…………

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2 thoughts on “I Want A Normal Life

    • Well let consider this:
      1. Living alone, no family.
      2. Coping with negative past life.
      3. Facing many facts with prophecies.
      4. Still looking life’s purpose.
      5. Heart broken.
      6. Hard classes.
      7. And many stuff that is going inside my head.

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