My life is not normal.
I wish it was normal but it isn’t.
My head is hurting right now and before I write this post.
I just don’t know where to start.
The only thing that I could say is just I have to carry a heavy burden each day for the rest of my life.
Not just I have to carry a cross in my neck for the rest of my life, but I also have to carry a heavy cross in my life.
The sad part is I don’t know with whom I can share this burden.
My life is hard to explain.
Just too many things happen.
I just cannot concentrate in school and classes.
I cannot study.
I cannot work on projects.
All of this happen beyond my control.
I know what it feels now to be CHOSEN.
To be the anointed one.
To be called by God.
To be the “SPECIAL” one.
I just do not understand God’s plan in my life.
WHY IS THIS HAPPEN TO ME?
THIS IS BEYOND MY CONTROL.
God, I want to cry to You everyday.
GOD, help me…..
Help me through my classes.
Help me through my life.
I want to start over from freshman year if I can.
I miss too many stuffs from my class.
I don’t know where to start.