Okay, here’s the deal. When people asked me what type of guy I like, I usually can’t answer it. I just think hard but really I don’t know what the exact type of guy I like.
I would be like: “yeah a nice guy, a smart guy, a religious guy, someone who don’t go to clubs, drink beers and stuff.”
And I thought I was attracted to those guys who achieve many things in their life. I would be like: “They are just so cool. I wish I could be with that person. ”
I don’t really know much about guys, even though I have 2 brothers. But they don’t really represent reality. Much more on that, I went to an all girls high school, and before that I don’t hang out with guys, I played with girls all the time.
I remember myself in February 2009, here’s what happen:
I just turned 17 at that time, I was in class, it was class time, and the teacher was not there. So the teacher just gave us assignment to work on. My friends and I were working on the assignment when an unexpected conversation happen at that time. We were talking about guys. My friends were talking about the guys that they liked. I don’t put much interest on their conversation, I was one of those kids who care less about dating, relationship and stuffs. So I just told my friends like this:
“I never really like someone in my entire life.”
Well, that’s not completely true, but having a crush on Hollywood actors does not count. And they were like:
“You are weird!! How could you never like someone in your life??? You are 17!!!”
“You are weird!!!”
And I think it’s completely normal. (Or isn’t?) And in my mind I was like:
What kind of guy who would make me fall in love?? Hahahahaha. I just could not imagine that.
After that, one of my friends was trying to get me up to meet someone. But at that time I was busy with school and was still scared of guys. So it never happened.
It did not stop there, on Summer 2009:
My SAT teacher asked us this question for the girls in the classroom:
“Do you need guys to take care of you?”
All the girls said “Yes.”
I was the only one who said “No.”
I was astonished myself. Mmm…. I am not weird right?
And there’s a funny story about my high school life:
Every time I was invited to a birthday party, one of my attention was to see guys. Even though I don’t really approach them. I just see them from very far far away while I am munching foods with my other friends who happen do not know any guys. I made a stupid wish that time. And the wish was this:
I wish I could meet a guy. Then we fall in love. And then we dated. etc etc
It was a stupid wish that I never reveal to anyone. I never really remembered that wish once the birthday party invitations stopped.
And now … the year 2013, just 4 years later, I regret of what I have said in the past. I’ll tell you more about this on the next part.
-First Part Finish-