I just could not get rid off the fact that my first love is a complete failure. Of all the things that I’ve done my first love is a complete failure. I could not erase that from my memory. It has taken my life. I got anxiety because of it. I could not concentrate because of it.
Worser than my failed piano recital.
Worser than the failed gospel competition.
Worser than the failed class.
Worser than the failed presentation.
Those failures only affect me for a little while.
But none have affected me like this one.
I love you but I could not see you.
I love you but I could not talk to you.
I love you but I could not touch you.
I love you but that’s the only thing I can say.
I love you but I cannot promise anything.
This is going to be my long long suffering.
I tried to forget, but I couldn’t.
I tried to not to fall, but I fail to do so.
I want to erase you but I cannot whipe you out of my memory.
I look up on a view but my eyes could not distract your image.
Why is it hard to forget you?
How Dare He!! How Dare He!!! How Dare He!!!
How Dare He Insult Me!!! How Dare He Put Me Down!!!
How Dare He Underestimated Me!!!
How Dare He Compare Me!!!
Does He Have The Capacity To Judge Other People???
Is It Money His Ultra Life Timing Goal???
How Dare He Judged Me!!!
I Have No Respect For Him.
God, please help me. Show me the way – Your way, because I cannot, and I can not decide what’s best. I simply do not know what’s going on.
I was underestimated. Pushed by the end of my dignity. I humbly humbly thanks The Lord because He is given me the people to make me humble, the people who look down on me.
I need to copy his words:
I need to fight back whenever and wherever I am bullied, underestimated, and pushed to the bottom of my own dignityI am strong enough to stand tall facing all the challenges in front of me eventhough I keep bumping into the roadblocks
I am not afraid to dream big which will probably make me look small in others’ eyes because I know exactly who I am and what I can do
Nooone.. Nobody.. could stop me from believing in myself
If anyone read this, I want you to push yourself more
That’s what exactly I will do – Pushing myself to the limit
Let’s dream big..
There is something that I am very stressful about. I suffer for the joy of heaven. Why it is so long to get to heaven?
I hate this world and all its sufferings.